I swear I have spent the last 4 days talking myself outta losing weight. I keep coming up with every excuse as to why I should just eat more calories and screw lowing weight. I have to get over this bump I always run it to. This is where I always give up. I cannot give up! I have to do this.
Sun- 2300
Monday-1834
Calories were a little high on Sunday, but I has quality food and no junk believe it or not. It was just one of those IM HUNGRY days.
I have done good so far with kicking the extreme tea drinking habit. I have had 3 glasses of tea with no sugar in the past 4 days. This is huge for me considering I have had like 80 ounces of sugared tea daily.
I plan on going to the YMCA tomorrow to fill out an application to see what the fee will be for my family. We are on a very tight budget so it is awesome that they base your fees by income.
This past few weeks have been a huge roller coaster ride for me.
Our 7 week old son had to have skull surgery to remove part of his sagittal suture that fused prematurely. This is called craniosynostosis. It’s not a disability just the premauture closure of the sutures…”softspots”
The surgery was a success. It took 4 hours and our little one needed a blood transfusion. They took me back right after surgery, which they normally don’t, because he was hysterical. Once I held him and said his name he calmed down right away. Poor baby.
All is well now. He will be one week post op tomorrow
So I hopped on the scale to be slapped in the face with a big 245!!
245 pounds!
WTF!!!
I detest.
That was it. I have had enough.
I started counting calories on Thursday.
It has been hard.
I cut out my usual pitcher of Lipton black tea with sugar. <—- This is killing me. I have been drinking this daily for years now!
I have however allowed 2 glasses of iced tea sweetened with splenda if needed.
Tons of water
So, here it is:
Friday: 1809
Saturday: 1600
Not bad. Lowering my calories has always been so hard for me which is why I havent gone very long! Sad I know, it just causes me to be starving for a week or so then Im OK.
I did buy myself a nice 5 pound tub of Womens protein blend from ALL THE WHEY. I have never tried the womens version, but have used their Whey Isolate last year which was good. My trick is to add a little sugar free chocolate syrup to any chocolate protein shake I have.
Yes, yes, I have done the one think I loathe the most. The one thing I said I would never ever do again, I am counting calories.
Not that big a deal right?! Well, I swore I wouldnt ever be strapped down to counting calories again. I just ate whatever, ate pretty healthy and all. Then I really paod close attention to how much I have been eating….I was SHOCKED. 2300+ calories a day. Some days were close to 2700. LOL. I cannot believe this. I mean sure its OK to eat like this to maintain but hell I wanna lose wright dammit. I just threw in the towel and decided I have to count caloires to know how much I am eating.
Then there is the calorie goal…
I am thinking 1500-1800 a day. Sounds pretty good.
Exercise is another story. I am really having a hard time getting down a routine. I managed to exercise for 2 days in a row. Big whoop I know. I am just so exhausted after tending to kids for 12 hours a day. This is something I am not used to. Hubby always came home at 3 then I would have me time.
lack of sleep is also playing a big role on things.
I am back on the wagon…..again.LOL
I never really got on to begin with. I have been busy as hell with 3 kids. How do mothers do it? I am learning, it is very overwhelming at times. I have a 5 week old, a 3 year old and a 6 year old.
Anyways, over the weekend I found a new love…NUTELLA
Weight: 239.6
Exercise: 20 min treadmill, 140 calories burned
Food: all pretty healthy, minus the cheesecake!
I have avoided this post for a week now.
I have gained 7 pounds since my post about losing weight. LOL.
I am very disappointed in myself, but know how to change it. MUST QUIT SNACKING, AND EATING FAST FOOD!
I have been ravenous for the past couple of weeks, which caused the weight gain.
I have also been totally aware of the gain, my pants do not fit the same as they did a couple of weeks ago.
Having Carl’s Jr. today certainly didn’t help matters any.
I have talked hubby into rearranging our home office so our treadmill can fit in it. This way I will be able to start exercising daily. I am really excited about this. But I am also a little nervous about the lack of sleep I have. Baby sleeps for about 3 hours at a time now, but I know I have to sacrifice to lose weight and get into shape. I can always catch up on sleep when the kids are grown right?
On to other things…
I finally found a digital camera that I totally love! I have bought 5 of them ranging from $200-$500. I finally found the best camera in the world that LOVE LOVE!
I bought a Panasonic Lumix ZS1.
Anyway, food porn is on its way!
Today was day one of my new plan..
- No counting calories
- Eat healthy nutritious meals
- Exercise on treadmill 5 days a week
I am 3 weeks pp, and healing pretty well from my c-section so I decided to get into a new workout routine.
18 minutes on treadmill on 2.5 at a incline of 4.
Oh my how life has flown buy these past three weeks!! I cannot believe our little baby boy is 3 weeks old!
Here is a pic of our new man Malachi Crispin
He weighed in at a whopping 10 pounds 4 ounces
I delivered by c-section as I had said before. The delivery went rather easy and smoothly. I had him on Friday and was discharged on Sunday, then everything went wrong. I had to go to get my staples removed on Tuesday, and my incision looked beautiful. Then some jackass med student pulled a staple out too hard which caused a little tiny hole to be left open. Then he had to apply glue to attach the steri strips, but the idiot spilled the bottle on the hole and my incision, which caused a severe allergic reaction on my skin. Lets just say it looked like I had third degree burns about 4 inches in every direction around the incision. I was horrified. Then that whole thing caused me to get an infection which they call cellulitis. I was terrified for a week thinking they would have to reopen the incision and leave it open. THEN I got a bad rash which ended up being a nasty yeast infection on the skin. I never in all my whole life would have thought all this shit woulda happened to me…. Lets just say the new baby blues were starting knock on pp depressions door. BUT thats not the whole story.
The day after baby was born we found out he was born with a rare birth defect of the skull. All babies have soft spots that are open for the brain to grow and the skull to stretch. They usually close at about one year of age. Well our little man had a premature fusion of those sutures on his skull while he was still in the womb. He was diagnosed with saggital craniosynostosis. There is no known reason for this defect, it is spontaneous and cannot be detected by ultrasound.
He has to have his surgery in March of this year. It breaks my heart that my little baby has to have surgery but I know it is necessary for his well being.
Please say a prayer for him and keep him in your hearts.
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So, aside from a couple of set backs, life has been wonderful.
I weighed in at 263lbs at 39 weeks prego!
3 weeks pp I now weigh 233! Thats a 30 pound loss ppl!
I started out at 240lbs….
I decided to purchase my own domain name…. www.init2loseit4good.com !! YAY…. I am so outta the blog world its not even funny. I have no idea how all of you develop such beautiful blogs.
Anyway…
My c-section is in 2 days!! I cannot believe it is already here. I am soooo freaked out, I feel like running and hiding in a hole until it’s over. I haven’t slept more than a few hours at a time the past few nights. I just keep remembering all the details of my last c-section. I did really well. I was so scared, I was shaking so bad that when the nurse had to hold me hunched over for the spinal I think I gave the poor lady whiplash!!!! I couldn’t control myself. But about 10 minutes later I was more calm. It’s hard though cuz hubby can’t come in until 10-15 minutes later.
UGH…
I dunno how I have done this twice before. I know what I have to do to have the baby, and I cant wait for him to be here, it’s just a scary process.
I will be back next week with all the details and lost of pics of the new baby!
Yesterday was my checkup. Doc has me in every 3 weeks instead of 2 because he has been my OB for all my kids. Anyways, Last visit I was 27 weeks and my measurements were right on. They measure the height of the fundus (uterus) and it’s supposed to be right on with the weeks you are. SO, Imeasured right on, 27 like I should. Anyways, yesterday was a different story. I am only 30 weeks and I measured 35!!! that’s a growth of 8 cm in 3 weeks. I have never measured big, but have always had babies over 8 lbs. This could be a problem.
So, doc says baby is very big. Funny thing is I was complaining about baby being big before the whole measurement thing. I told him this kid is painful, he is HUGE!!
So now I must have another ultrasound done in 3 weeks to see just how big this boy is. Also, they need to make sure I don’t have a lot of fluid, because that will stress baby, and mean a whole set of new problems.
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So the other day I was at the store and happened to walk passed the “diet” isle. I glanced over to see this woman, beautiful, young and mdesperately seeking a solution in a box of SlimQuick. I so wanted to run over there and tell her how she can’t find a magic pill to make the weight disappear. I watched her for a moment then went about my business. Later I saw her at checkout with 2 GINORMOUS boxes of that stuff. I just couldn’t help but feel sooooo sorry for her.
Why is it that everyone always seeks a magic pill. They think that they can just pop pills and lose weight without all the hard work of eating healthy and exercising.
I was there in that womans shoes ONE time. At the end of 2007, I had been plateaued for over 6 months and desperately sought a solution. I turned to ALLI, yes ALLI!!! I took it for 3 days before going to the hospital because I had an allergic reaction to it. Lesson Learned!!
There is no magic pill. I just wish all these dam diet pill companies would blow up. The government should be educating Americans about proper nutrition and exercise instead of letting these companies make millions. UGH
So, like I said before, I have been reading The New Rules of Lifting For Women. Your probably like why? Your 30 weeks pregnant!! LOL. I’m trying to absorb as much as possible before I have this baby and start my program.
Back to the book…… I cannot express enough that this book is awesome! Anyone who is looking to learn the truth about weight loss and weights should definitely pick up the book.
I just finished the chapter about nutrition. I must say, this dude knows his business. We are all used to hearing the same old tale “if you want to lose a pound a week cut your calories by 500″. “To lose 2 pounds a week cut 1000 calories out”. This is what were used to hearing right?
Lou says this is a load of crap. He advocates that there is no reason to cut cals at all in the beginning. That’s what causes plateaus. I have also heard Bob Green preach this in his books. As well as many bodybuilders, and figure athletes. Anyway he just goes on to say that you need to implement an exercise program BUT, track your calories without changing them. Do this for 4 weeks and see where you are, while following his intense training program. I love this. (if you wanna know more then buy the book!!)
I have only attempted to lose weight once in my life. That was after the birth of my daughter. In Jan 2007 I began by cutting calories to 1500, plus added in cardio everyday. I quickly lost 38 pounds in 4 months, and eventually got down to eating 1200-1300. Then I plateaued for six months I did everything I could possibly think of to break that plateau. Nothing worked. Nothing. I eventually gave up and ended up gaining the weight back. All the while I knew I had made a huge mistake by cutting my calories so low. Sure I felt good cause I was losing weight, BUT I felt like crap all the time, had no energy, suffered from major migraines. It was awful. Plus, I couldn’t eat much more without gaining weight.
After this experience I promised myself that I would never ever again torture myself with starvation to lose weight. I know your thinking, that’s not starving!! But c’mon, it is. I know I could never ever maintain on 1200 calories for the rest of my life. Not even 1700. LOL.
Being a big girl at 240 lbs, and standing 5 feet 9 inches I need FOOD!! Not to mention the fact that I am VERY big boned.
Ok, I have ranted enough. If you don’t agree, it’s ok. Im just speaking my mind is all. It’s my blog.
