After much deliberation I finally decided to make the big leap to buy a Bodybugg! It cost $250 for the arm band, the display, a year on their web program and 2nd day air delivery. Not bad. I am head over heals in LOVE with this thing.It has really opened my eyes to see how active (or not) I am.
Here is my new BFF:
I revamped my eating plan to follow the Body Buggs recommendations to see if this thing is right. I will post later with all the details.
Unfortunately, aunt flo has been here for a lot longer then normal so I have seen some small drops on the scale but I’m waiting for the bloat to leave. I’m so puffy, I hate it. It’s all good though, I’m here for the long haul and I will win this battle.
Now I just need to figure out how to insert my BB info in my posts!!??
YUP, it’ s like that.
I must confess this to the world. I got up this morning and weighed myself to find a 1.6 pound gain!
I was furious. I could not believe I had gained weight.
Right away my mind started racing, thinking of all the things I needed to do to lose the 1.6 gain. “Slash calories, yes this is it. I must, how else will I lose weight. All my efforts have been washed away with a gain. I will cut my calories down to a low level and get off that gain and then some. Yes, I will be grumpy and nasty and feel like crap, but I will lose right? What else? I ate good yesterday, I know I did. How could I do this. I know I had pretty descent calories . Wait lets check. 2500. WTF well there is the reason for the panic. OK all is calm. Ahhhhh”
Yes this is the conversation I had with myself this morning after finding a gain on the scale. I was devastated. WHY? Because this is my pattern..Put my heart and soul into this and then give up once I get a curve ball, which is usually in the first week or two. Not this time! I will not give up, I will win. I am worth it to just keep on keeping on.
OK all is well now. I still will dont count calories but I think a calorie journal would help, just to know whats going on and prevent a freak out like this. LOL.
Exercise has been great, I am workin on my 6th day straight!
I swear I have spent the last 4 days talking myself outta losing weight. I keep coming up with every excuse as to why I should just eat more calories and screw lowing weight. I have to get over this bump I always run it to. This is where I always give up. I cannot give up! I have to do this.
Sun- 2300
Monday-1834
Calories were a little high on Sunday, but I has quality food and no junk believe it or not. It was just one of those IM HUNGRY days.
I have done good so far with kicking the extreme tea drinking habit. I have had 3 glasses of tea with no sugar in the past 4 days. This is huge for me considering I have had like 80 ounces of sugared tea daily.
I plan on going to the YMCA tomorrow to fill out an application to see what the fee will be for my family. We are on a very tight budget so it is awesome that they base your fees by income.
This past few weeks have been a huge roller coaster ride for me.
Our 7 week old son had to have skull surgery to remove part of his sagittal suture that fused prematurely. This is called craniosynostosis. It’s not a disability just the premauture closure of the sutures…”softspots”
The surgery was a success. It took 4 hours and our little one needed a blood transfusion. They took me back right after surgery, which they normally don’t, because he was hysterical. Once I held him and said his name he calmed down right away. Poor baby.
All is well now. He will be one week post op tomorrow
So I hopped on the scale to be slapped in the face with a big 245!!
245 pounds!
WTF!!!
I detest.
That was it. I have had enough.
I started counting calories on Thursday.
It has been hard.
I cut out my usual pitcher of Lipton black tea with sugar. <—- This is killing me. I have been drinking this daily for years now!
I have however allowed 2 glasses of iced tea sweetened with splenda if needed.
Tons of water
So, here it is:
Friday: 1809
Saturday: 1600
Not bad. Lowering my calories has always been so hard for me which is why I havent gone very long! Sad I know, it just causes me to be starving for a week or so then Im OK.
I did buy myself a nice 5 pound tub of Womens protein blend from ALL THE WHEY. I have never tried the womens version, but have used their Whey Isolate last year which was good. My trick is to add a little sugar free chocolate syrup to any chocolate protein shake I have.
Yes, yes, I have done the one think I loathe the most. The one thing I said I would never ever do again, I am counting calories.
Not that big a deal right?! Well, I swore I wouldnt ever be strapped down to counting calories again. I just ate whatever, ate pretty healthy and all. Then I really paod close attention to how much I have been eating….I was SHOCKED. 2300+ calories a day. Some days were close to 2700. LOL. I cannot believe this. I mean sure its OK to eat like this to maintain but hell I wanna lose wright dammit. I just threw in the towel and decided I have to count caloires to know how much I am eating.
Then there is the calorie goal…
I am thinking 1500-1800 a day. Sounds pretty good.
Exercise is another story. I am really having a hard time getting down a routine. I managed to exercise for 2 days in a row. Big whoop I know. I am just so exhausted after tending to kids for 12 hours a day. This is something I am not used to. Hubby always came home at 3 then I would have me time.
lack of sleep is also playing a big role on things.
I am back on the wagon…..again.LOL
I never really got on to begin with. I have been busy as hell with 3 kids. How do mothers do it? I am learning, it is very overwhelming at times. I have a 5 week old, a 3 year old and a 6 year old.
Anyways, over the weekend I found a new love…NUTELLA
Weight: 239.6
Exercise: 20 min treadmill, 140 calories burned
Food: all pretty healthy, minus the cheesecake!
I have avoided this post for a week now.
I have gained 7 pounds since my post about losing weight. LOL.
I am very disappointed in myself, but know how to change it. MUST QUIT SNACKING, AND EATING FAST FOOD!
I have been ravenous for the past couple of weeks, which caused the weight gain.
I have also been totally aware of the gain, my pants do not fit the same as they did a couple of weeks ago.
Having Carl’s Jr. today certainly didn’t help matters any.
I have talked hubby into rearranging our home office so our treadmill can fit in it. This way I will be able to start exercising daily. I am really excited about this. But I am also a little nervous about the lack of sleep I have. Baby sleeps for about 3 hours at a time now, but I know I have to sacrifice to lose weight and get into shape. I can always catch up on sleep when the kids are grown right?
On to other things…
I finally found a digital camera that I totally love! I have bought 5 of them ranging from $200-$500. I finally found the best camera in the world that LOVE LOVE!
I bought a Panasonic Lumix ZS1.
Anyway, food porn is on its way!
Today was day one of my new plan..
- No counting calories
- Eat healthy nutritious meals
- Exercise on treadmill 5 days a week
I am 3 weeks pp, and healing pretty well from my c-section so I decided to get into a new workout routine.
18 minutes on treadmill on 2.5 at a incline of 4.
Oh my how life has flown buy these past three weeks!! I cannot believe our little baby boy is 3 weeks old!
Here is a pic of our new man Malachi Crispin
He weighed in at a whopping 10 pounds 4 ounces
I delivered by c-section as I had said before. The delivery went rather easy and smoothly. I had him on Friday and was discharged on Sunday, then everything went wrong. I had to go to get my staples removed on Tuesday, and my incision looked beautiful. Then some jackass med student pulled a staple out too hard which caused a little tiny hole to be left open. Then he had to apply glue to attach the steri strips, but the idiot spilled the bottle on the hole and my incision, which caused a severe allergic reaction on my skin. Lets just say it looked like I had third degree burns about 4 inches in every direction around the incision. I was horrified. Then that whole thing caused me to get an infection which they call cellulitis. I was terrified for a week thinking they would have to reopen the incision and leave it open. THEN I got a bad rash which ended up being a nasty yeast infection on the skin. I never in all my whole life would have thought all this shit woulda happened to me…. Lets just say the new baby blues were starting knock on pp depressions door. BUT thats not the whole story.
The day after baby was born we found out he was born with a rare birth defect of the skull. All babies have soft spots that are open for the brain to grow and the skull to stretch. They usually close at about one year of age. Well our little man had a premature fusion of those sutures on his skull while he was still in the womb. He was diagnosed with saggital craniosynostosis. There is no known reason for this defect, it is spontaneous and cannot be detected by ultrasound.
He has to have his surgery in March of this year. It breaks my heart that my little baby has to have surgery but I know it is necessary for his well being.
Please say a prayer for him and keep him in your hearts.
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So, aside from a couple of set backs, life has been wonderful.
I weighed in at 263lbs at 39 weeks prego!
3 weeks pp I now weigh 233! Thats a 30 pound loss ppl!
I started out at 240lbs….
I decided to purchase my own domain name…. www.init2loseit4good.com !! YAY…. I am so outta the blog world its not even funny. I have no idea how all of you develop such beautiful blogs.
Anyway…
My c-section is in 2 days!! I cannot believe it is already here. I am soooo freaked out, I feel like running and hiding in a hole until it’s over. I haven’t slept more than a few hours at a time the past few nights. I just keep remembering all the details of my last c-section. I did really well. I was so scared, I was shaking so bad that when the nurse had to hold me hunched over for the spinal I think I gave the poor lady whiplash!!!! I couldn’t control myself. But about 10 minutes later I was more calm. It’s hard though cuz hubby can’t come in until 10-15 minutes later.
UGH…
I dunno how I have done this twice before. I know what I have to do to have the baby, and I cant wait for him to be here, it’s just a scary process.
I will be back next week with all the details and lost of pics of the new baby!
